Wednesday, May 26, 2010

of towering heights

I'm condescending by nature,
I destroy any bits of hope that may shine through my tattered mind,
I judge - far more often than I should and they sway me more then anything would.
I dismantle everything and see it by logic,
I'm too curious for my own good,
I question everything all the time,
I'm constricting myself,
I have to hide.


I have to be strong,
I have to be supportive,
I have to keep my thoughts to myself,
I have to smile in front of you.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

candid

time may be moving on but i'm not.
living in the shadow of what billions sought.
i'm already scarred by you, yes you.
buried and i still don't have a clue.










i miss you a lot.
if i was just a one time thing, let me know.
put me out of my misery.
you are the one,
always was,
always will be.
but that doesn't mean we can be together.
just wishing for it will not make it happen.
i just pray i still have time.
Mercy Killing please.

Friday, October 23, 2009

nutrition

I try to pen beautiful pieces,
Express myself through these tattered pages.
Between lines of fiction and ruses,
Truth tied only to your flawless features.
Amongst the vastness of god's creations,
You must be his prized possession.
I've been down on bended knee,
Waiting to be knighted with your feathered kiss.
On my path long have i treaded,
O so far i don't regret it.
Yes tis true i am not gifted,
Lock me up if your heart allows it.
Dreaming of saving you is foolish,
Alas, i am but only a humble peasant.





Without you, i'm won't be dead. But i wouldn't be living.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

ferris wheel

it wasn't easy.
to smile when everything was falling apart.
to cover up the truth in my heart.
to trail past you without breaking peace.
to reach the opposite side of your darkened street.
with people telling me we were never gonna be.
with dozen others at my feet.

But it was easy,
for me to be captured by your eyes again.
to know falling for you wasn't just a trend.

the wait was worth it.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

the one in the closet.

Morality.

If god existed,
would we have lived our lives any different?

If the Earth was indeed flat,
could it alter what we believed?

If the concept of distance wasn't thought of,
we wouldn't have to hide behind numbers.

If time stood still,
nothing would be important.

If love was absolute,
we would be.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

say my name

Crawl,
your first attempts.

Stagger,
it's working - keep on going.

Walk,
it's getting easier now, im one of you.

Run,
the wind, the freedom.

Walk,
the glory is fading.

Stagger,
crippled.

Crawl,
everything becomes pointless.

Die.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Drowned Eternal.

Been a while since i last posted anything. Been pretty busy and just plain lazy. I've been thinking non-stop about the past/present at best. This song sums up everything that's been happening for over half a year now. It's beautiful.

The Fray - Be The One

They're two lovers in the night
Waiting on the sun to rise
Passing ships into the night
Under different skies

But you just whisper what you said
One last time
I could have sworn I heard you say
That you are mine

Faded flowers in your hand
The best that I could do
It's the only way i've had
Of reaching you

I never saw it like you did
Didn't know that it was there
You don't see it in your hand
Until the end

Be the one and only, wait for me
Will you be the only one
Will you be, be the one and only
Wait for me, will you be the only one

What if I knew how to yell
What would I pray
What if I knew how to tell
What would I say

I will be the only one
If you say you'll never go
I'll be screaming out your name
From the back of ohhhh

Be the one and only, wait for me
Will you be the only one
Will you be, be the one and only
Wait for me; let me be your only one

Be the one, be the one and only
Wait for me; let me be your only one
Will you be, be the one and only
Wait for me; let me be your only one
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I feel as though i am Ophelia, reaching out to Hamlet who feigns insanity, destined to drown in this madness of love. I still mean what i said.