Friday, December 5, 2008

我们，不是你和我

peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewww BOOOOOOOOM.

That's the sound of the crashing of my attempt to form a bond between us. Never a bright day in my life lol. this shit is sad. Tried to get her to talk about getting the elephant out of the way and she said that it was her problem to solve and she didn't want to talk about it. I mean it is our problem and i want to do whatever i cant to help. Apparently, me shutting up works for her lol.

We're in this together but we're not dealing with it together. I tried to understand it from her point of view. | I'm in a relationship with a boy which i met again in sg. But i have a over compulsive and very possisive boyfriend... oh i mean ex. I'll figure out my next step if the sg boy can come to kl, i'll find an excuse to break up with kl dude! | kl confirmed, still dont see anything different. Guess i have to wait abit longer, be more understanding. Opportunity arises for her to make it clear to the ex, to bring things to the light! --------- CONFOUNDED! FEELINGS HAVE THRAWTED HER PLANS. At least that's what i think is happening.

I'm getting paranoid, i don't know what's what anymore. I need her to show me how she feels, what she's thinking. I'm getting blocked out from "OUR" first real problem "TOGETHER". Apparently it didn't occur to her that it is against my pridea and my principles to just sit idly and watch freaking chernobil go into meltdown and eradicate the very meaning of relationship.

So here i am tucked away in the corner of my living room wrapped in my blanket and up to my head with emotions that would make a drama queen gape in fucking awe.